TheOne

It's been just a day since I thought of you.

I thought I saw you at the rally yesterday, but it wasn't you. It's never really been you.

I hadn't thought of you for a while before then, but it's still not that long in real life.

I sit in front of TheOne after thinking of you.

Is it true, or is it a terminal case of apophenia?

Is life harder for you now than it was back then?

I overheard some people our age those years ago.

Her voice sounded just like yours, but not as I know it now. What does your voice sound like now? Will I ever know?

The kids I heard, I wish I could take the boy by the shoulders and get it into his head.

Ask more about her day, how she's feeling, go out dancing, have more fun together, stop saying things you don't mean because you're too insecure to tell her.

I sit in front of TheOne looking up to see that there's no one there.

No one has been there for a while, am I just more lonely than I think I am?

She had the same cadence as you do, or you did. I can't say what your cadence is now. Maybe I never will. What do you think?

Tell me about your day. Do you want to go out tonight? Can I cook for you this time? Can I tell you what has changed and what hasn't? If we never met, would I still find you? Will I ever find you again?

It looks like I wasted my chance. I let go of someone who meant everything to me.

There you go, finding someone else who will make you feel everything, everywhere.

Someone who knows that real love isn't like the movies at all.

Why do I keep asking the same questions, even though I know the answers.

Say it, say the words you don't want to say, just once, so I know for sure. Are we ever sure? Why can't I leave you?

I used to think that the ways we were different were the reasons I loved you, but maybe it doesn't work that way for us.

What's left here, of us, is just words on a page. It's all I can do now, it's all I have left of you.

Where do I go now? Which direction do I take? Is this the right path? Wherever it goes, I know I've never been there before.

I don't think TheOne is supposed to feel like this and I think you know that too.

I guess I found my answer; it's the same one that I keep coming back to